#Throwbackthursday… I am starting to wonder if some of my physical issues are connected with me not dealing with emotional issues. I am slowly learning I carry my stress in my body. Someone asked me if I was anxious for my son on the other side of the country. No, not that I am aware. I miss him and feel bad for all the struggles he has to endure, but all is good. God is good. (In reality I try not to let my mind go there. I try to stay away from that space.) Tight neck, tight shoulders…. not sure why, there’s nothing to be stressed about. Then those quiet moments creep in, I push those thoughts away before they flood me and paralyze me. So today I am back here at this space reading my own words, of lessons I was learning back at the beginning of the year, feel the feelings. Be honest with God. Allow Him to meet me there. I am studying the Beatitudes right now and doesn’t it say, “blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted?” And yet, I avoid, distract, focus on other things. Oh Lord, help me to trust that if I allow myself to feel the hard that you will catch me, cover me, and comfort me. Blessed, happy are those who feel the feels with honesty and allow God to meet them exactly where they are not where they think they should be…

#throwbackthursday… I cannot believe it has been two years that I have been writing in this space. It has given me many gifts and helps me as I continue to develop the discipline of gratitude and remembering. During this current year it has been even more important and more challenging for me to keep track, to be intentional with these two important disciplines. Since August I have been making the act of remembering and gratitude part of my morning routine, daily writing down a few brief things that I accomplished or things that occurred the day before, and then pulling out the gratitude journal and adding gifts from the day before. It has been such a gift for my head and heart. I feel more focused on my days, and it helps me to be more intentional with my time. I have many scraps of paper with pieces of blogs to be written in their time and am learning to enjoy the process more. All is grace and for this I choose to remember and give thanks and when the time is right share.