Out my Window: sunny with humidity increasing, hummingbirds letting me know it is time for a refill in their feeders Enjoying: long walks, beautiful sunsets, jazz music, wild flowers, picnics Listening to/Watching: Almost done with book 1 Lord of the Rings, moving onto second book The Two Towers  on Audible. Holy Post The interview was very good (47:00ish). Skye Jethani … Continue reading Daybook

Bears its Fruit in Season

#throwbackthursday… Revisiting this post on seasons and fruit… I was listening to a podcast and the speaker mentioned how maturity is different at different seasons. A mature apple blossom is different than a mature apple, but both can be fully what they are meant to be in their season of being. I feel like we are in such a weird season. It is easy to judge it and write it off as fruitless, but it might be just a different part of the maturing process. It can still be fully what it is meant to be if I choose to enter in and not disdain it and wish it away. The mature blossom is needed to get an apple. I am reminded of the year I plucked all these dried pods off of our rhododendron in the fall thinking I was helping the plant. In the spring I found out that those dried pods were very important. They would have been beautiful flowers if I had left them, but I saw no need for them and no purpose in the fall. I feel like it is easy to judge things this season as things that I do not need and would like to get past, but I am trying to remember that it has a purpose. It is important to be intentional to be present in what is right now and not miss it because it may be the fruit that I can enjoy later, if I do not try to pluck this away.

Inkblot Life

IMG_1555The first year of growing sunflowers from seed was surprising to me. I had no idea how long it took to bear that magnificent flower. The green was nice, but no flowers for what felt like forever. Being the black thumb that I am, I thought it was my fault, but according to my gardening green thumb friends, they said it takes time and told me to be patient. The flower will come they told me, and it did. Unfortunately a squirrel ate the tops of all but one, but one beautiful, definitely worth the wait flower appeared after many weeks of waiting. I stood in awe and took may photos.

sun2 Photo courtesy of my son.

That was a few years back. The last couple of years I have purchased packets of seeds but never quite managed to get them in the ground until this year. Probably a few weeks…

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Enough Light

Throwback Thursday… Re-reading this one today for my own soul, and thinking about what it looks like to stop and allow my eyes to adjust in the darkness that seems to be invading at a super high speed and intensity. Thankfully the darkness cannot overcome the light. The light is available, and I have to choose to allow my eyes and heart to adjust to see the light that is already there. Once I see light, I can point it out and look for ways to add more light. It is tempting to curse the darkness, but that does not change the circumstances, or help anyone. “Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. ” -Martin Luther King Jr.

Inkblot Life

IMG_1366 We can lament the dark. But don’t miss the light. -Andy Olsen

Maneuvering in the dark is very uncomfortable to me. Even with a flashlight, darkness feels unsettling because of that control thing, I cannot see what else is out there. One time I was on a ten day “outward bound” type hike, and one of our leaders made us turn off our flashlights and just wait a minute. He wanted us to see that our eyes would adjust and that there was enough light to be able to hike through the woods.  It was amazing how much we actually could see, and how much light was actually available. When I was focused on the dark it was easy to miss the light.

Lately, there have been many life events around me that feel so dark and oppressive, but as I stop and look closer, my eyes and heart adjust…

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Out my Window: hummingbird flitting about, blue skies with fluffy white clouds, beautiful lake, hills, fireworks exploded here and there Enjoying: walks along water, time with my oldest, relaxing, extra reading and studying time, front yard gardens, so many different types of flowers Listening to/Watching: Almost done with book 1 Lord of the Rings, moving … Continue reading Daybook

Nehemiah Ministry (and other not so spiritual ideas)

Throwback Thursdays… When I started this blog it was to work out and ponder ideas. I had no idea how many times I was writing for my future self. This is one that I have been needing to recall often these days. May we be quick with mercy, and overflowing with grace and love. I recently read this quote shared by Scott Sauls in his very timely book, A Gentle Answer, from C.S. Lewis, “Christianity is a fighting religion…(It) thinks that a great many things have gone wrong with the world that God made and that God insists, and insists very loudly, on our putting them right again.” There is a fight to be had, but the question to keep asking is, are we fighting for people, or against them? One is righteous and the other is not. These lessons are slow and hard, but if I claim to be a daughter of the King, then I must continue to press on, and learn to love well. #TBThursday

Inkblot Life

Righteous anger, yes! Jesus flipping tables because someone was being taken advantage of, yes! Nehemiah plucking beards of elders who were abusing power, yes! Sign me up! Righteous! Anger! Or…not so righteous… but I mean well, and start well, but in Ephesians it says,”in your anger do not sin.”  I somehow start well, and end overlooking the ledge of critical eye and harmful heart. Over the years I have jokingly said I want to start a Nehemiah Ministry with the motto, “Throttle People for Jesus.” I know, even typing it, I cringe. Jesus did not come to flip tables. His mission was to die for all those people in the temple, to help them reconnect with God. Nehemiah was not characterized as a beard plucker. He was a protector of his people and a hard worker rebuilding his community. He took action when it was the appropriate time, but…

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Out my Window: rainy morning, hummingbirds singing and playing in the rain, low clouds hovering in front of our hill Enjoying: seasonal food, grilling, going into a bookstore, early summer days, eating at the picnic table, wild daisies growing everywhere along the roads and paths, my container plants Listening to/Watching: Still listening to and loving Lord of … Continue reading Daybook