Out my Window: So much beauty. Blue skies, puffy white clouds. A few days of what I would consider to be perfect weather, sweatshirt and shorts in the morning and evening with a bit of warmer in the afternoon.
Enjoying: Nectarines this year have been amazing! We are thoroughly enjoying them. My younger son and I have been enjoying the PBS Sherlock series.
Listening to: Started listening to Craig Groeschel’s latest leadership podcast with Carly Fiorina, https://www.life.church/leadershippodcast/q-a-with-carly-fiorina-unleashing-your-highest-potential/ need to finish. Very interesting so far. I decided to listen to Michelle Obama reading her book, Becoming on Audible. I haven’t started yet, due to not driving much right now. Audible is on my Kindle so driving and listening seem to work best for me or when I am cleaning.
Reading: My carry around book is Glorious Weakness: Discovering God in all We Lack by Alia Joy.
Finished Identity Theft: Reclaiming The Truth of Our Identity in Christ edited by Melissa Kruger. It was a good read. Helpful to ask myself what things do I allow to steal my identity and what is the Biblical way to think about that part of my identity. It has a Bible Study with it. I think it would be a good one for a group of ladies. I may revisit it to do the study in the future.
I had reserved Maybe You Should Talk to Someone: A Therapist, Her Therapist, and Our Lives Revealed by Lori Gottlieb from the library. It came in, and now I am trying to figure out how I can finish Glorious Weakness and this quickly because I just joined a book launch that I am excited about, The Promise is His Presence by Glenna Marshall. The topic seems perfect for this season of life. I am looking forward to reading it. You will be hearing more about it soon.
Pondering: My husband preached on Micah 6:8 this past weekend https://www.glmwc.com/content.cfm?id=213&download_id=886 which is one of my favorite scriptures, most of the time, except for when it is convicting and hard to apply in situations or to certain people. Sometimes acting justly, loving mercy, and walking humbly with God feels like it costs me too much. Sometimes it is the last thing I want to do in the situation, but it is always what God requires of me. He is not desiring for me to make justice, to enact justice, He wants my actions to reflect His heart of justice which is slow to anger and great in compassion and mercy. He wants me to love His merciful ways and pass on the mercy that He lavishes on me onto others. As I sat in church in a the midst of a situation that was one of these that is tricky, I was deeply pondering what does it look like in this situation? Then as the day unfolded, more and more opportunities arose to practice. Pondering how many times I have missed doing the requirement and tried to distract God, as if that is possible, with my big talk, or acts of kindness in areas that are much easier to give in? What does it look like in the hard and messy that seems to be in my face a bit more these days?
Learning: To go along with my ponderings, I have been practicing putting this Scripture over anything that is challenging or annoying. Repeating them to myself and then asking God for wisdom and grace to apply them. Paired with my Romans 12 study on Sunday morning, it is powerful to stop and ask God for a more accurate, sober view of myself. Not the hype, or what people assume is true of me, or what I want to be true of me, but what is truly true of me, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I hold onto what God says to be true of me, and am learning what it looks like to really walk in this truth. In light of His mercies to see myself, as well as others, and desire to follow the path He has laid out for me since before time.
Home: I washed a bunch of windows! Yay! Okay maybe I am more excited about this than need be, but every day I would look out them and they would mock me and remind me that they needed cleaning. I have others that still need to be done, but I need a longer hose. I have been making a to do today list of one chore and promptly ignoring it… but I have been doing better with the kitchen so there’s that.
Fitness and Mental Health: Schlogging on many days. Up to 12 pushups for now. I have not added other exercises yet. Mental Health has involved choosing something that is fun or enjoyable, even if it is inconvenient. I needed to get away for a short bit so I drove with windows down into town and purchased a $1 Unsweetened iced tea from McDs, and Sunday Paper before attending social events, I laid around the house one morning and watched a couple episodes of PBS Sherlock with my younger son because we could. I set aside guilt of what I “should” have been doing and just enjoyed myself.
Giving Thanks: For a dinner with a friend that helped me process some thoughts about my future. Catching up with a dear friend by phone. Laughter and fun with my younger boy. My husband getting to visit our older son at his new place and job. Planning a visit soon for the whole family. For community that supports and encourages even in the hard. My post, Soul Amnesia, https://inkblotlife.com/2019/06/19/soul-amnesia/ I wrote in response to some difficult news this week garnered some beautiful encouragement and thoughts from different people in my life on Facebook. It was encouraging and comforting that we are in this together. For people who look out for me.