I used to be confident of my own strength. I used to be confident in my own plans. Even my life verse I took on at a younger age, before I learned about studying a verse in context, was “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13 Only I was confident in my own strength to muscle through and suck it up. I was confident in my own plans and my own path. I was confident that I could make things happen, or die trying. I was confident that I knew what was best for me and for many situations.
I am no longer confident in me, although some days I forget.
I am confident that He who began this good work in me will be faithful to complete it. I am confident that it will, and already does look different than any of the plans I had laid for myself, but I am thankful. I am confident that I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living, despite what my eyes or feelings tell me. I am confident that God’s timing and thoughts are so much better than mine. I am confident that Jesus has gone to prepare a place for me, and that eternal party is so much better than I can ever imagine. I am confident that God is my defender and protector and that He has written all my days in his book and He will carry me home when this part of the journey is done. I am confident in what Christ has done for me.