My husband has a music collection that rivals my book collection. I have always enjoyed music, but books were what moved me, and spoke to me. I love words. I would listen to whatever my family put on, but very rarely had a desire to listen to something specific. Lately, I have grown to really enjoy music, and to have preferences. Having kids who are exploring music to find their preferences has been fun, and even helped me to find music that I really like and get in the mood for. Going to concerts was never really on my list of things to do (I know some of you are gasping, sorry), but now I enjoy it on many levels. I am finally beginning to understand people’s connection to it.
As much as I am more of an alternative, heavier type of music listener these days, there are couple songs that always get me. They are my heart songs. One is my heart’s desire and the other has lyrics that resonate with my soul. One of my favorite songs is Be Thou my Vision by sixth-century Irish poet Dallán. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=faBLAC6a_Fs) I am a woman who is easily distracted by the good and the hard. I tend to run ahead or run off, but my desire is to have God’s vision for all, and in all, to have His wisdom and walk in the victory that is already won. This is an anthem song for me. As much as a David Crowder song can get me, or a Disciple or Thousand Foot Krutch can move me, this song is the song of my soul and the desire of my heart. I want to want this.
The other song that resonates so deeply with me is Come thou Fount by 18th century pastor Robert Robinson. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDbllO1LrvM) The language is old, but the struggle is still very real. I feel the lines so deep in my soul.
Bind my wandering heart to Thee
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here’s my heart, oh, take and seal it
Seal it for Thy courts above
I get distracted. I question His goodness and the plans He has laid for people. When I do not understand, I wander off, but thankfully I am tethered to Him, and He is teaching me the melody to the song He is writing. The tune that can sound so cacophonic at times to me, is being heard and hummed more often in my heart, and those times when I wonder where He is going with the composition, I am beginning to trust and wait. “Wait for it,” He keeps reassuring my “prone to wander” heart. Wait for the next note. When He puts this all together, it will be more beautiful than I could ever imagine. Even the notes that I have tried to add He will write in and make a symphony that resonates in my soul.
My gratitude for music is growing. I am appreciating words set to music, and find myself desiring a song. I am starting to listen a bit more closely to the song that is the song from Ancient of Days, that all of creation is singing, and inviting us to join in. I am thankful for this new season of discovering a new place to learn, and come alive. Music has helped my heart and soul to come alive in a new way, and connect with others, especially God. I am thankful for this unexpected gift.